Oops, I did it again.That hill half marathon.When I told my brother about it he said, "why did you do it again?"I did it again because it is an amazing feat. An accomplishment. A real pushing-my-body-to-the-limit.Steve did it with me this year. It was nice to have someone know the pain and agony but also... Continue Reading →
My little sister has birthed a baby. A little girl named Aviana Jaye. She is so tiny, so loud. I never worried once about getting Baby Fever. Unless it is meant in the literal sense of a fever, accompanied by a headache and fatigue. Babies are not my jam. New moms have it really rough. Those... Continue Reading →
Brandon Jude, Somehow or another, five years have passed since the day you made me a mother. A different one this time: a mother with a child to care for.You changed me, as I suppose everyone I know changes me, but in a different way. In a more intense, permanent way. You taught me sacrifice... Continue Reading →
When I write, read, run, or drive I listen to music. So basically all the time. A song will always remind me of a slice of time in my life. These are my favorite songs in 2017:Love on the Brain - RihannaWhen The Stars Come Out - Chris Stapleton Southern Girl - Amos LeeLa Cienega... Continue Reading →
Another song I play on repeat, wishing it was longer.Country music tells a story. You can hear it here: first his story, then hers, then theirs. Need a little background noiseTo drown out this little voiceRunning circles 'round my brainScreaming louder than the painMy head is spinningMy resolve is reeling
For 1096 days, this one has been squirming and screaming. Smiling and snarling. Getting into things. Getting out of them. Talking non-stop every minute he's been awake. Being a best friend to his brother, being the best lover of me. If you could hear the way he says, "I'm so excited!" you'd be excited too. His squinty-eyed smiles make my... Continue Reading →
I rely on myself a lot. I pull myself out of funks. I self-medicate with yoga and running and writing until I can find myself again. I live in a place far from where I'm from. I don't have the camaraderie that comes with an 8-5 job. I make friends, but then the keeping part is... Continue Reading →
Yesterday, I told my friend I haven't taught my kids anything. That everything they know is from a book or TV or the iPad or preschool or each other. But of course, although they have learned from other sources, it isn't true that I haven't taught them anything. Why, right saying after that, I taught... Continue Reading →
All that you rely onAnd all that you can fakeWill leave you in the morningBut find you in the dayI haven't stopped binging on Andrew Belle yet. He's in my veins. Holden watched me intently today while I was driving, singing along. It was a moment, him and me, entranced in this song.
I've been melancholy lately, realizing again how short life can be.A friend of mine passed away suddenly. I got the call last Wednesday night and I sunk into the booth at work, feeling like this wasn't real. It was an out-of-body experience. I heard the words, and they made logical sense, but it was hard... Continue Reading →
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