look to the stars

Astrology is probably a crock of shit, right? I mean, most likely. The premise is that their are twelve basic types of people in the world and their characteristics hinge on when they were born. Sounds a bit far-fetched to me. But even still, I find myself venturing to one of those websites every now and again, to try to make sense of people that way.

I am sure all of the characteristics used in these things could relate to anyone, but maybe once we realize it about ourselves, we allow it to be more, agreeing it is a part of us rather than trying to fight it off. It’s a self-fulfilling prophecy, maybe. Once we know there is a reason for it, we allow it. And that reason can be stars, the way we were raised, whatever. I guess once you stop fighting what you didn’t feel you should be you can just be.

I guess the other reason I get curious about these things is because my husband is the Virgoiest Virgo there ever was. I mean, someone must have studied him, then written down all that stuff about being analytical, reliable, and skeptical. I am a Pisces, but I never thought it described me very well. That is, until the last time I looked at it and realized it’s mostly true. I thought I was more of a Leo when I was younger, but as time marches on and I have left jobs that didn’t suit me and I have felt free to relax and be myself, I am realizing more and more that I am a Pisces.

Anyway, I looked it up again awhile ago because I realized that both of my boys are the same sign. And they act very opposite now, so I was curious as to what characteristics they could potentially have in common. One key word is independent, and although I’ve always found that in Holden, I didn’t see much of that in Brandon. But tonight he asked me to leave his room rather than fall asleep with him and when I went up there to check on him, he was fast asleep: curled up in the corner all by himself. Damn it. I liked feeling needed.

Some of their other words are generous, optimistic, enthusiastic, courageous, moody, short-tempered, self-involved, impulsive, impatient. (Wait, am I an Aries too? Astrology must be a crock of shit because I’m all of these signs!) I definitely see much of those in both of them, in different ways while manifestations still of the same quality. It’s funny how you can be so similar yet so different at the same time. I guess that is astrology in a nutshell, if you think about it.