I have never gotten on too well with other moms. I mean, I don't hate them or anything, but I definitely keep my distance. At the park, I'm that loner mom on a bench reading a book, or micromanaging my kids playing on the big toy. I overhear their conversations and think, my god, we... Continue Reading →
home sweet childhood
It is always nice to go back home, but this trip had a greater meaning for me.It was my goodbye to my home, and I spent a few tearful moments in our backyard, in my room, and in the room that Amber and I once shared. I stood where our gardens once were, which was... Continue Reading →
Significance
High in the clouds, I stare for a moment,marveling at the intricacies of these clouds,then thinking of all the other clouds, elsewhere,I have never seen and never will.And then I think of other places and thingsthat are also spectacular that are so separatefrom me, and suddenly, I feel so insignificant.But then I look down at... Continue Reading →
Over/under
A month ago, I posted about how I was so god damn tired all the time. All. the. time. I went to the doctor and nothing changed afterwards - I did not start taking any pills or vitamins or have some life-altering diagnosis. But what did change was me. I decided to quit sitting around... Continue Reading →
losing home
The unthinkable has happened. My parents are selling their house. Our house. Our family home. When I heard the news, I should have been instantly happy for my parents to be moving on and up. I should have been glad for them and this next chapter that they've been talking about for years and years. And... Continue Reading →
definitions at 32
Well, Jewel's book didn't turn out quite as fantastic as I projected. She transformed from an independent warrior woman to a co-dependent brainwashed one. Her book ends up being a bit preachy - bestowing on her readers everything she learned as advice we should heed. And although I definitely didn't agree with all of it... Continue Reading →
halloween, lighthouse, hay rolls
Holden's second Halloween, the first one he's been excited about. He can say, "ween" and a variation of "trick or treat." He also asks to watch "It's the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown!" by pointing at the TV and saying, "good grief!" Brandon does not like taking pictures. For some reason my attempts to convince him it... Continue Reading →
finding calm amongst chaos
Turn the quiet up, turn the noise down. ~Sung by Eric ChurchI have always loved solitude and find comfort in quiet. Yesterday, a fellow barista told me she was an introvert and I laughed and corrected her. She is very outgoing and talkative, and I associate an introvert instead with a shy person who thinks... Continue Reading →
feeling the story again
When I think to when I've felt the most myself, I remember the year after college, the year before I was married. I had my own apartment and worked breezy, carefree jobs. I had a TV but no channels. I spent my free time hanging out with friends or writing. Back then, I had dreams... Continue Reading →
Gathering and journaling
Now about gathering, here is what I mean. My son Adam, his wife Betsy, and their little children Alison and David live in Minneapolis. When I travel there, I know I'll visit with family. Have good meals. See friends. Indulge in amusing conversations. Lots of fun music. (Adam is in two bands.) What it doesn't mean is... Continue Reading →
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