I'm pushing an elephant up the stairs~"The Great Beyond" by R.E.M.Steve was playing this song in the car the other day and I just sat there, listening to the lyrics, swallowing a lump in my throat. Because that is how I feel - I am pushing an elephant. I am the pusher and the elephant... Continue Reading →
January love list
It's been awhile since I've blogged about what I'm into lately, but I think I'll get back into the habit. If I'm honest, this isn't some thought that just came to me. Rather, it was inspired, as most thoughts are. If you've watched Below Deck, no doubt you too have a deep appreciation for Kate... Continue Reading →
impulsive, delusional
I am so done with adding kids to this family. I'm over it. This baby-making shop is closed.But then. We went to the children's museum. We go to the children's museum, a lot, actually. So much, in fact, that it serves as a reminder of certain stages of my boys' lives; a barometer of how much... Continue Reading →
word strings
I am a lover of words. Not a vocabulary geek, but a lover of words strung together to mean something beautiful or thought-provoking or wise. Here are some of the word strings I have loved lately: "An American Childhood" by Annie Dillard. One of my favorite memoirs ever. I have been making a conscious effort... Continue Reading →
perm experiment
About two months ago, I got a perm. I know, I know. It's a perm. But even still, I did. I was an experiment, of sorts. I sat as a hair model for a fellow barista who is in hair school. I reluctantly agreed, assuming I would be the only person without gray or white... Continue Reading →
fullness
What is enough? In this pursuit of happiness, money, notoriety that we call our lives, is there ever a happy ending? Or will there ever be a destination where we are full? Full of what we sought - happy where we are, content. While watching "Wild," I scribbled down a quote: "this has the power to... Continue Reading →
chaos
Watching five boys ages 1 to 5 is insanity. Complete, utter chaos. The noise. Oh, the noise. On Tuesday, after playing with their friends, I took the kids down to the old market to see the lights wrapped around the trees. We started with pizza, but when we came outside afterward, it was pouring down... Continue Reading →
"you’re fine"
On Friday was my doctor's appointment for exhaustion. I felt a bit silly even making the appointment, sounding like one of those celebrities who checks into rehab for "exhaustion" when you know it's not really that. When I got there, the nurse checked my vitals and then said gently, "so we're treating you for exhaustion?"... Continue Reading →
run down
My last blog post was weeks ago and at that time I felt exhausted, run down. Today, I still feel exhausted and run down. At first, I thought it was just my body adjusting to my early morning hours working at the coffee shop. But that is only a couple days a week and even... Continue Reading →
a wedding with kids
Last night was our time attending a wedding with children in tow. Steve and I enjoy weddings - the free-flowing booze and dancing the night away. I mean, what's not to love? Except, of course, when I'm pregnant as I have been at the last two weddings, but that's a different story. A friend of... Continue Reading →
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