Tonight, I was asked if I am happy."For the most part," I answered."That means 'no'," he replied,"Life is black or white.""No," I argued,"Life is shades of gray."But even as I said it,I thought, what if he is right?What if everything can be reduceddown to a "yes" or "no" answerand all of this reasoningin the graysis... Continue Reading →

I need encouragement. I'm taking a stab at writing a book, after talking about it for years and years. Read a page and give me some feedback. Any feedback. I have to start somewhere.I lifted my downcast eyes and snuck a look at my husband, soon to be ex-husband. He was watching our two lawyers... Continue Reading →

Once upon a time, I lived alone; I lived in a one bedroom apartment by myself. My friend and I went shopping at Furniture Row where I opened up a credit card and bought dark wood furniture for all three of my rooms. It took six weeks for the furniture to come in, so until... Continue Reading →

There are things I can turn down: saunas, gym memberships, mani/pedis and chocolate chip bacon cookies are in this category.Then there are things that I can't turn down: a trip to the bookstore, a nap, reality tv, and premium coffee are in this category. Premium coffee is a real vice of mine. In my personal... Continue Reading →

I've come to hate small talk.It means two people have nothing to talk about. But to mask that, they have pointless chatter, most commonly about the weather, but it doesn't have to be. Sometimes it's other observations. I hate small observation talk. Most commonly, it's something like, "you got a haircut." What are you supposed... Continue Reading →

It finally happened.I got a new car.After seven years of driving a salvaged car without air conditioning, you would think I would be ecstatic the day I traded the bucket of bolts in for a newer model.But I wasn't.I cried.I fucking cried! Full out red eyes, red nose, sniffles.The salesman came back from negotiating with... Continue Reading →

Ideologies separate us. Dreams and anguish bring us together. ~Eugene IonescoI don't talk much about religion or politics. Not on this blog, not in real life. It really is true, that quote. Political and religious differences separate nations, cause wars, and are the reason that a mob was standing on the corner of 144th and... Continue Reading →

At work, we have a mailman who was nicknamed "Papa Smurf" for his uncanny resemblance. The beard, the stature...he even wears all blue. I thought Papa Smurf was a harmless lonely old man, so I would chit chat with him each day while signing for our certified mail.And then, a co-worker moved into my office... Continue Reading →

I hear people say the divorce rate is deplorable – can you believe only 50% of people who get married stay married? I think that’s amazing. It’s pretty great that half of the people who decide they want to be with someone forever really mean it. Forever is a very long time. It’s easy to... Continue Reading →

So it's happened. I've been invited to my 10-year high school reunion.When we were about to graduate high school, some of us thought we'd still be friends. We're not.I have considered going. I live half the country away, but it might be fun to see people from my past again. I considered using a day... Continue Reading →